In my first term this year, I have seen a few of such real people and it has changed me. It constantly remains in the back of my head as a reminder of why I wanted to do medicine in the first place. I want to help this people. When you see them suffer or experience such helplessness, it really really breaks your heart, you want to do everything you can for them, but sometimes there are wars out there that Medicine cannot win. A person who undergoes chemotherapy can only hope, that after suffering so much because of the treatment, that one day, he can again experience life to the fullest. Cancer is not meant to be a death sentence. We can cure it if we find out early, but more often than not, we never find out till it has metastasised aggressively. Certain cancers like skin cancers are a lot less deadly than others like lung and colon cancer which are almost certainly fatal. You see them suffer, u see the sadness and pain in their eyes and sometimes I ask myself why am I doing this? It hurts me so much to see people suffer. But again, I know that in the future, this experience of suffering will teach me a very important lesson that no lecture or person can give to you.

It has also served as a constant reminder of the value of life. The reality is, one day, I might, in fact almost will, become like one of them, either suffering from a chronic or deadly disease. Treasure what you have now, love those around you, spend more time with those you love, lest one day, they be taken away from you. To suffer from such an illness is a pain worse than death itself, and to watch a person you love suffer.... I cannot even bear to watch a patient, a stranger, suffer will I be able to watch someone I know and love suffer? Their eyes constantly cry out to you for help, but you know with your limited knowledge, even with the knowledge of the specialist, this man has reached the limit of our understanding of the disease. We have done everything we can.

You will have no idea what I've seen, but at least I can share the lessons I've learnt. Don't regret one day....