Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Que serra serra, what ever will be will be....true... wad will be will be in this life.... i might change my mind over a few things eventually, like working overseas... not med.... hahaha, if i did say abt med, i think u guys will die of shock... hah.... nah, i still love med like hell.... it's my passion and maybe my one weakness... like they always say, your greatest love is your greatest vunerability, because love makes u weak, it makes u vunerable, it makes u unable to make decisions.... but then love is strong, because hand in hand, u become strong.... ok, just a short tot, off to sch now...=)
8/30/2006 07:21:00 AM , lovin till it hurts
Sunday, August 27, 2006
my 2nd slack weekend in a row... this is rarer than striking toto twice manz.... finished everything by sat nite, so today slacked the day away with com games and watching DVDs... watched munich, which was great.... tot it was kinda objective as a film.... if ur a history buff like me, u'll enjoy it, otherwise dun bother, u'll prob find it boring....
pressure is eased off considering thursdays are only an hr or 2 for me from now on, which is great, gives me more time to do my work, resulting in a slack weekend? but soon have to start working for finals liao, but not after sept hols.... wad are the plans... let's see....
1.Plan revision schedule
2.Critical Appraisal
3.Choc factory tour
4.BBQ at my place
5.Glenelg
6.Star city buffet
7.Driving with Fr Joe
8.Finish revising sem 1 work
should be a good hols, busy, but must make sure can clear all...
8/27/2006 09:14:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Having a slack weekend this week, not by choice but really cos i cleared all me work and now nothing to do.... can't wait for the sept hols manx... so many things i wanna do, academic or otherwise.... like have to start revision of sem 1 work, then also plan revision for finals in nov....
thinkin of some people back home... can't wait to meet up with them,,, this is going to be soo fun! then yr 4.... more freedom in a sense....dun think so far liao... enjoy life as far as i can now.... be happy! =)
8/20/2006 10:21:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Was watching a sitcom today and was surprised how much truth and stuff you can learn from it, especially how unwittingly the director did so.
The story simply was about a lady who welcomed a whole family into her house. They were homeless and living in a shelter. It was pretty much against her will as her daughter took them in as they were supposedly extended relatives. Throughout the show she was really uncomfortable, being put at her wits end and really being out of place and out of her comfort zone. She then confided that she felt really uncomfortable with them, but felt too guilty and just wrong to kick them out. She then wondered alound, "I wish there was some instruction manual about how you are suppose to feel or what you're supposed to do." The stranger then said there is, and pointed to the open bible. She read this line in the open bible, "When I was hungry, you fed me. When I was thirsty, you gave me to drink, when I was in prison, you visited me. When I was a stranger you welcomed me...." Well, this sums it all doesn't it? The instruction manual telling us what to do. Life would be a lot better if everyone just read the instruction manual to life.... I must confess, I'm definitely far from perfect, but this is just some food for thought... only if we did read it....
Jesus did not promise us comfort, nor did he say it will be easy to follow him. Hence her discomfort at the situation. We will have to give everything, we will have to become uncomfortable if we're going to follow him... we will have to do what the world cannot accept, that is love, for if they cannot accept the master, they will not accept his servants as well.... I just pray that everyday I can learn to try and live the live he expects of me....
8/13/2006 09:56:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Thursday, August 10, 2006
wah... wad's with me man.... last few days blogging frenzy.... it's more of i forgot to write it down yest....
anyway, it's just more of tots about the future.... it's weird, i never tot of such things before, but wad will my life be 10 yrs from now? yeah, we all have plans, but normally, it never turns out the way we expect. how will my future wife be like? i dunno... but i'm still a true romantic at heart? there needs to be that special something and not just that lah, must explore and stuff.... but i'm still fairly open-minded about it? some pple say i'm ngeow (i see nessa raising her hand now and agreeing...) but i really dun think so.... as for where my future lies, i say again, i'm open about it, aussie, home, oso ok.... i'm still confused rite now, where is the best... i'll miss family, friends and all the gals i've been with are s'porean, or (maybe) have feelings for are also s'porean.... maybe i really am meant to stay at home....
will i be a good parent then? i wanna be the best i can for my kids, have a close r/s with them like my own dad.... he's like my best friend.... the weird thing is that we learn so much about good parenting in school.... will we make good parents ourselves eventually? then will all docs make good parents? i hope i will... i can't wait to see myself as a dad.... wonder how i will fair....=D
8/10/2006 10:29:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i still don't understand until today why everyone think docs smart, prestigeous, etc....after 3 yrs and after hearing so much said about it, i still dun believe in that.... it goes against everything i stand for. i did medicine cos i love the subject, i still do. i love trying to help people as far as i can, and i still try to live up to my own expectations on that... that's all i believe is in med.... call me a dreamer, call me living in a fantasy world, but that's wad i believe in... i believe in passion and compassion.... everyone just goes, oh, u doing med must be smart, in the future going to be rich, etc.... nah, not interested.... enuff to take care of my family, enough to give my kids the best education, happy liao.... i'm a simple guy who just loves wad he does....
8/09/2006 11:05:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
hmmmm... I just saw, 125 post... this blog was started the yr i started med, so that's 3 yrs now... have so many of my thoughts, my love life or the lack of sometimes, my emotions.... i remember i started med sch as this idealistic character, rarin to go.... i dun think a lot of it has changed since then.... i think i'm still idealistic and i definitely have not lost any passion. still love med like... like.... how to describe? i dunno.... but it's damn obvious to everyone i've met, even to docs i was attached to for a mth....
anyway, had my first MC today... 1st time in 3 yrs.... doc insisted cos she said i'll be spreading it to really ill patients in the hospital, also she said i looked exhausted and needed a break.... oh well, break i did as far as i can today... studied in the morning, slept in the afternoon, studied again, now watching TV, updating my pAMH and blogging.... feeling a li'l better and i'm not taking tomorrow's MC... never intended to... today cos of the patients, tomorrow no such excuse....
anyway, i was thinking....grades.... hmmm.... can it buy happiness? it sure didn't to me, at least not long lasting.... it was more relief, then satisfaction.... otherwise nothing? just have to maintain for yr end i guess.... more recently, i'm startin to miss/think about pple, not exactly homesick, but i juz wanna spend time with them? just to name a few.... serena, mich (hopefully we can meet up yr end), shyna, hanying (my dear :p), nessa (my meimei, although u just came over today.... stupid game hanged lar, sorrie!), jol (u better not be sian when i get home k? =S), MJ (where have u been gal? haven't seen u in yrs!).... hmm, yeah, this are the pple who came straight to my head, the rest, not that i dun miss u, but just the first few....
anyway, mom and dad are coming down yr end, that should be interesting.... seeing fr joe soon, adrian's housewarming was cool, although i managed to make everyone die of beehoon goreng overdose....=p sorry peeps, i'm a guy, always overcook one.... can't wait to see the kids... mommy told me they're walking now.... so cute!!! i'll see them once i'm over this bloody flu.... should be by next wk anyway.... alrite peeps, that's all for now... message or mail me soon k? miss ya all....
8/08/2006 09:06:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
