Received my exam results a few days earlier than expected. I'm happy with it, in fact it's a lot better than expected. Got a A when I was expecting a B. I've identified some areas of improvement though. I passed every paper, otherwise it's pretty much mathematically impossible to get an A, which is supposed to be >70%. But looking in detail, I reckon my practical paper can be improved on, esp the anatomy parts. The pathology part of it got "good patho" for it, so I should be fine.... The rest, I'm quite satisfied with the performance overall. Most importantly, in retrospect, I've never been calmer, more prepared for any med exam ever so far. I just felt like I've covered everything and wasn't really stressed, even the last day before the exam.... it's weird cos normally by then I'll be really jumpy? But I was calm.... Thank you Lord, for granting me your peace for giving me clarity of thought throughout the exam.... Thank you for helping me get over the disaster of last year.... Continue to guide me and to lead me in my career. May I be an instrument of your Love....
This year so far in review... well, it has been good so far, definitely better than last yr. On the academic front, it's been exhausting, starying at 8am every morning, studying till late at night.... my body has adapted to less sleep this year. Well, like they say, it's the 2nd most siong year in my 6 yrs, what did you expect?? that's why the exam results was a pleasant surprise....emotional, i'm good, done with the depression anxiety bit. hopefully it never comes back.... not as good cos i'm missin someone... diff person this time round.... in love? I STILL DUNNO!!!SO STOP ASKING IF SHE'S MY GF!!! SHE'S JUST A FRIEND K??? That's why I dun wanna think to much or move to fast, simply cos I'm not sure of my own emotions.... It's just, I never thought this would happen.... But then, it's just that "attraction" that sort of emotional connection or special feelin? i dunno.... just have to wait and see I guess... I'll play it as it comes....
This weekend is slack cos we haven't gotten the prac sheets, so time to catch up and use it for the other stuff like my paeds essay, release the stress for later on.... and I'm waiting for my patient to come over tmr... seriously need to take a look, this is very unusual... If need be I'll be asking her to see a doc.... Othwerise maybe a chance to relax? =)
7/30/2006 12:02:00 AM , lovin till it hurts
Thursday, July 27, 2006| You Are an Excellent Cook |
 You're a top cook, but you weren't born that way. It's taken a lot of practice, a lot of experimenting, and a lot of learning. It's likely that you have what it takes to be a top chef, should you have the desire... |
ok... really time to change occupation liao.... hahahahaha!!! everyone's saying that, if i fail as a doc, i'll definitely make a cook, now even the quiz says so.... =s
7/27/2006 11:34:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Tuesday, July 25, 2006ok, i'm friggin tired, so this has to be short, but felt like blogging, which is not often.... this semester is insane... got 2 projects for med, logic tuts and tests, mppd looks like it has a fair bit of shit to do also.... and all running concurrently! this sem is so siong! haix....
today hospital day was no better... stupid tutor was late, impressed by my ability to diagnose the patient correctly with just my history (suppose to be lah, can be done up to 75% of the time), though he did not realise i did not even do my reading up or prep for this! well, i guess this is suppose to be the way when ur in yr 3... if u do still need to look through, then really, i think ur in pretty deep shit.... the only time i'll revise and read is maybe before my clinical exams....
and i will not see my exams till early next wk... i can still enjoy my blissful ignorance in the meantime... peeps, drop me emails soon, esp those without msn or never login one.... feelin a bit lonely again....=S tired... nitey!
7/25/2006 10:59:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Sunday, July 23, 2006School starts tomorrow... there goes my blissful ignorance.... We'll see how it goes, worry when I get there. Learnt a lot from last year and this is one of them. I like the new me.... I've learnt not be be so uptight and tense, but enough to help myself through my studies and stuff.... maybe the doc was right, it was more AD than MDE.... but both are gone now.... and it feels good! =)
Since I've been back in Adelaide, it's been a strange feeling of lonliness.... i'm indifferent towards my new housemate. so far he's ok, only managed to piss the neighbour off.... =p steven just told me he's moving out next yr... so sad! i'll miss him, big time.... he's like my adopted brother here in adelaide.... this means i'll get 2 new housemates next yr.... how? i oso dunno....
anyway back to the lonliness bit.... initially i was chuffed to get some space for myself back... no mom chasing after me for stuff, no phone calls calling me to tell me bad news abt my "patients" aka relatives. I love to help them, med is my passion and my love, but i dun enjoy hearing bad news abt them... i rather they dun fall sick.... but who am i kidding? this will happen in time... and when it happens, i will be there for them.... the baton and responsibility for their health and welfare has passed to me now, and i will do my best for them....
then the bad part started.... i started to miss late nite shoppings... i started to miss pple... incl HER.... this is awful... how did i let that get to me? we're hardly seeing each other anyway! only a few dates together, no sparks flying or anything.... but i always felt that special connection with her.... this is really weird... in love? i dunno... that's why like i say, i'd rather get to know her better, spend more time with her, then i'll noe wad this is, a special friendship or more.... that'll have to wait till i get home in nov....
and working overseas.... cos of this, it made me weigh in the options again.... am i really cut out for this, full time? it means no going home, only once a yr at best.... the life here and pay is certainly better, but if i go home, i get to be with family and friends.... maybe i'm still a s'porean at heart.... but i can't stand the environment back home.... i dun wanna put my kids through the same system i went through.... but like dad say, mind u, i'm not simply being a daddy's boy here, but it's a fact: if our ancestors thought this way, that they must stick with friends and family, then we would all still be stuck in china.... under communist oppression, poor like the farmers there.... if man does not have courage to lose sight of the shore, he will not discover new lands.... Lord, guide me in this... reveal Your Will to me.... Where do You want me to serve You?
7/23/2006 10:03:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Tuesday, July 18, 2006hols are almost over.... new sem.... hopefully the exam results will be ok.... God knows why the exams were so weird. It happens to go weird in our year every time. Can't be helped I guess. Just pray for the best.
Being home this time round has been so busy. Meeting up with people, medical stuff for sick relatives. In fact I just came back from doing a check up for one of them. Initially was a bit concerned, but after examining her, a li'l more reassured about the situation, though it appears there's something more insidious.... Just told her about it, guess it's just patient education that's all I can do for her.
Matters of the heart again.... Do I love her? Do I even have feelings for her? I don't know.... I never expected this to happen.... I never thought she was my type in the first place.... but then.... but then.... haix.... it's just that special feeling again.... the way we can talk, can click.... but then our paths are taking such a diff route.... how is this ever going to work out?? I dunno wad actually made me look her up in the first place.... one thing leads to another... fate or god's will?? i dunno how she feels abt me.... i'm bad with that, so maybe i shouldn't even try in the first place.... well, i guess my stand now is just to let it play out.... dun wanna think so much....=s
7/18/2006 12:16:00 AM , lovin till it hurts
