It might be hard to be lovers
But its harder to be friends
Baby pull down the covers
Its time you let me in
Maybe light a couple candles
Ill just go ahead and lock the door
If you just talk to me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore
Lay your head on my pillow
I sit beside you on the bed
Dont you think its time we say
Some things we havent said
It aint too late to get back to that place
Back to where, we thought it was before
Why dont you look at me
Til we aint strangers anymore
Sometimes its hard to love me
Sometimes its hard to love you too
I know its hard believing
That love can pull us through
It would be so easy
To live your life
With one foot out the door
Just hold me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore
Its hard to find forgivness
When we just run out of lies
Its hard to say youre sorry
When you cant tell wrong from right
It would be so easy
To spend your whole damn life
Just keeping score
So lets get down to it baby
There aint no need to lie
Tell me who you think you see
When you look into my eyes
Lets put our two hearts back together
And we'll leave the broken pieces on the floor
Make love with me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore
We're not strangers anymore
We're not strangers
We're not strangers anymore
omg... this song is so good.... and it really speaks for me, esp the chorus....=) actually it's the whole song lah....=) by bon jovi if ur wondering, from his new album....
psych so far has been fun.... i can really see myself as a psych in the future, and apparently some pple can too! =D my former tutors just to name some.... back then i was like, no way, but now.... hmmm... i can see it happening? anyway, shall see... go where He wants me to serve i guess....=)
6/29/2007 08:03:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Thursday, June 28, 2007| You Are a Mermaid |
 You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else. |
wad's the male version of a mermaid arh?? kaoz....=S
6/28/2007 08:47:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Friday, June 22, 2007first day back. feel so sick, so depressed, missed home the moment i stepped into changi, not even left s'pore yet k.... i hate this feeling, i dun wanna leave the country, sick of it.... when i arrived back here, sorted out all the crap first, and then i bawled my eyes out.... they still feel swollen from all the crying.... u can call me a crybaby i really dun care. i'm the sort of person who will cry if i want to, and it'll be the case for the rest of my life. and while i was feeling depressed, hinted thru my msn nick, no one seems to hit on it or even try to.... really disappointing cos i was already feeling lonely and still no one bothered.... THANKS MAN.... i bawled even harder after that..... felt a bit suicidal then.... thks jas for that short convo we had, it helped a little.... i still need pple to talk to, so if anyone who reads this still gives a shit about me, do buzz me.
i think i really do miss home cos of a very close r/s with my parents and cousins? mostly parents.... cos they're like my best friends, i can talk to them about anything and everything, even stuff which u might consider taboo with your parents? things like r/s and gals, dad told me some of his stories about that too.... we had a lot of talks walking with each other every night, or when i'm in the room and he's e-mailing.... my cousins, we've always been a close knit bunch although i may be seperated from the group at times, but still we're closer than most families i guess, oh yah, thanks jer for your time today as well.... god will provide the means for u just as he will grant me strength.... maybe that's why i miss home more severely each time.....
lord, why me? why did u choose me, the least qualified person for this job, drag him away from his home and family? if it was to teach me to treasure my family more, lesson learnt: BIG TIME.... so can we stop the lesson now? PLEASE.... med is not the tough part, i noe if i put my head to it and grind it out, the results will come.... it's the lack of my loved ones that is eating away at me.... sigh....
6/22/2007 06:51:00 PM , lovin till it hurts
Wednesday, June 20, 2007so many things to talk about since i've been back and now leaving again. it's that damn sinking feeling i have once again.... i don't want to go.... i'm not done yet.... tmr is like morning to nite appt lor.... studying is not really the issue, i believe i can get it done without much of a hassle and survive the exam, essentially that's half the battle won in my books: confidence. the sinking feeling is again that of being lonely sometimes and wish i really have someone i can talk to.... i wish u 3 gals will get to adelaide cos not only i think u'll make great docs, but i think we'll make better friends then....=D i don't really get along with most of my yr level kids except for that few who noe wad i'm talking abt.... i've beared my soul to u guys and i'm sorry at times i might have sounded a bit bad but i think u can tell those are the really shitty times too.... u noe i'm not like that normally.... =) so yeah.... i guess this is the cross i have to bear. called by god to serve him in this manner, all i can ask is lord, give me strength and peace.... trust me, u think being an overseas med student is glamourous or something, pls think again.... i didn't call it a cross for nothing.... but it has become more and more obvious over the days that he has truly called me to serve him in this manner, so i guess your will be done then....
had to attend and assist at my cousins wedding recently too.... i'm really really happy for her and i think i was at times holding back tears myself cos i could see how happy she was. i think no one including herself expected to find a man like him. at this age and the fact that to me she seemed like she didn't want to get married perhaps cos couldn't find the right person. but she found this guy over the net and viola! so internet dating does work after all.....=) lucky her and lucky him.... i wish i can be this happy too.... if i had a say in the writing of my life, i'd be seeing someone now ideally and maybe get married after intern yr? but i'm still single so yeah.... working on that first.... cos i'd rather know a person for a few yrs before actually thinking abt marriage? and i guess i've become more realistic too.... age doesn't quite matter to me anymore....
also was asked to see a few patients back home. patients meaning my relatives who wanted my opinion. one of them was well and truly stroked, with all the complications that followed and co-morbidities.... was a challenge for me to work out what is pertinent and wad is less of a problem.... i actually think that would make an excellent exam question really, u had to really watch where ur threading when treating him. another was an arthritis which i had insufficient evidence to call it as such. but again it made me look back at myself before med school, how i have changed. strangely enough as a kid, i was afraid of the sick and the dying although i had this very strong desire to help them. scared maybe cos i didn't understand the problem, or maybe cos they were so ill. but now, look at me: i go right in, greet them (even though they seem really out at times), start trying to help them or examine them.... i'm like wow.... how did i get to this stage from that poor timid kid almost a decade ago when he was first called by his creator to serve? maybe the name jeremy was a premonition of what will happen in my life.... like the prophet jeremiah, he too was called, but he was scared, he was a timid guy, shy.... but the lord made him bold and empowered him.... i saw a sticker the other day, "god doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called." looking back, how true this is! among anyone i noe, honestly, i was the least qualified, grades wise personality wise as well.... but the lord is my strength and he has worked wonders in me.... in him, i have been qualified for the job.... he called me although i had to be severely tested before i got here, why? he wanted me to learn how to be strong because i will still fail many a times in my life, but i had to learn a valuable lesson, that is how to never say die.... that desire to serve and to help those in need remained in me even today.... i just cannot not "kaypoh" abt a medical problem sometimes whether asked or not....=p but the fact that people trust me with my opinion makes me glad, cos that shows that people trust me enough to value it..... anyway, enough for now.... i hope this sem goes well, and the exam too....=)
6/20/2007 01:58:00 AM , lovin till it hurts
Saturday, June 09, 2007The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cuz there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.
[Chorus:]
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cuz I need you to guide me to safety.
No, I don't want to wait forever [x2]
In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.
[Chorus (x2)]
song by snow petrol from the spiderman 3 album.... beautiful song really, says a bit of my feelings rite now too....=)
6/09/2007 01:56:00 AM , lovin till it hurts
